After a wonderful January, in February, I and many other
writers on the Ten Minute Novelists and 365 K Facebook list struggled through
February. My guess is that many other
people who made New Year’s Resolutions also struggled in February.
I know I’ve mentioned it before, but I tend to be a little
all or nothing in my thinking. Either I
do everything I said I would do or I think I’ve totally failed. If you look at my earlier posts on challenges
and thought I was crazy to commit myself to so much this year, then you’ll
probably be shaking your head right now and thinking that that approach might
mean that I’ve set myself up for failure.
But, I’m a recovering perfectionist, so though I struggled
with some goals in February, I achieved others.
I didn’t write a poem a day, but I wrote fifteen poems. I didn’t get my 674 words a day, but I wrote
over 5,000 words. I read many picture
books, and I signed up for the ReFoReMo challenge. I wrote my second picture book draft of the
year. I posted at least weekly in this
blog.
Then March began, and I committed myself to one, just one,
of my faltering goals. In March, I told
myself, I would write a poem a day. Though
sometimes I’ve had to write two poems in one day to meet that average, I’m back
on track with my poetry in March. And
I’ve already written my picture book draft this month. And I’m at a total of over 350 picture books
read.
I’d still like to get my daily word count back up, but every
time I fail and pick myself back up, I’m learning what it takes for me to be
successful. And I’m retraining my
brain. I don’t have to do everything
just right, I just have to keep working even when things get difficult. As I write this I hear Ellen DeGeneres’s
voice in my head, “Just keep swimming.” And I do, I keep doing the work, I keep moving
forward towards my goals.
I still have work to do this month—I want to catch up on my
poetry submissions and I have four picture books ready for queries, so I’d like
to get those sent. But, when I look at
the year I’ve had so far, I realize again how responsive I am to assignments (I
loved being a student) and how far I’ve come in my recovery as a
perfectionist.
So, if you had some goals that have dropped away in the
weirdness of February and the busyness of the new year, don’t be afraid to dust
them off and pick them back up. There
are still nine more months in 2016 and so much left to do.
Wishing you ease, joy, and success!! Lori